i haven't seen you in a while

it's been so long since i've written in this thing. i'll be lieing if i said nothing has been going on.
i don't know where to begin, so might as well not. i'll just write about what i did today, or lately..

woke up. ate breakfast (for once) and everything else in between. shortened day today at school, five points for today. came home and it was really hot. chilled around, watched tv. i'm planning to work on my story a little, i haven't come up with a name to it yet. i'll just listen to jorge's advice, finish it, read it over, and it'll come to you.. it's original. not many people have read it or heard about it, it's going to remain that way too. afterall, i am writing it to entertain myself. so we'll see how this project goes..

i'm going to summer school and will you throw your shoe at me for saying i'm excited? i hope not, at least i'll be occupied this summer with school, trying to lose some weight, staying fit, writing, reading books & try to hangout a little with friends. the only thing that is getting away with summer school is no ride back home, since my mom is getting a job she is only able to take me to school & she doesn't get out til 12:30pm. she suggests i ask around who's going to summer school who i know personally, lives by my area & is willing to give me a ride for 20-25$ a week. not a bad deal, eh?

april 28 is the day my cellular contract ends with AT&T. i'm excited, my mom mentioned that my papito is considering getting t-mobile. i want a sidekick & nothing else. i have to check the pricing though, hope it's worth it. i've never had t-mobile, just my parents.

lately, people haven't been giving a cent about me. i listen to what they have to say and take in consideration of how they feel, everything else in between. but no one gives a damn about me when i have issues.. and just need to talk it out.. they always cut me off with something more important than me and that down right makes me furious. they just aren't worth my time, so why am i getting mad over it? i should just not care if they don't care.

the people who care will listen, hope you do the same for those too.

You constantly make it impossible to make conversation
Keep us comatose but audible.
And I like it the farther I get out.
We pass it off but it's all on us.
Only common conversation,it took everything I got.
And I like it the farther I get out.

Once said, always said.
I will hold the past over your head.
I'll speak my mind whenever I feel slighted.
I am hellbent on extracting all of my revenge.
Take heart, sweetheart, or I will take it from you.

TH1RTEEN R3ASONS WHY

i don't know if i should say nothing has been going on or something has been going on.. but either way, i guess both things have played out.

i want to be inspired to finish my stories.. (two). i just haven't had that motivation. wishing to pick up at things isn't working, either. maybe it all comes down to not having a good story to keep on writing and imaging things. yeah i think thats the issue here. when the time is right, i'll create another one. worth writing this time. something based no my life, but not entirely that would give me away. events and stories, like falling inlove, making wrong choices, memories, nostalgia...

Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher
Review: i didn't expect what i got from that book to be so powerful. it realy made me think about how i come off to people, and how there are always signs. i can admit that sometimes i let these signs pass me by. how much i thought about suicide and how i probably wasn't the only one.

when someone reaches for you help, you can't just ignore.. you know when someone is.. and can't just play yourself like it's nothing.

i think it's now my favorite book ever.

.. trying so hard not to sound cliche.

and i learned one thing.. all girl who commit suicide.. are named Anna..
reminds me of my book Autumn that i once was working on.. the girl who died was Ana. >.>

happy birthday

today is my birthday, it's probably the best birthday ever.
i'm around the people that appreciate me and don't forget about me.
i can't ask for anything more. =) nothing else matters.

birthday week, don't know what to expect

i didn't think i'd live this long, i thought i was going to go through more shit then i did, but its okay. it's probably sad to say that i don't feel anything, no big change, no big bang; just a year older. just yesterday, i was turning 15.

& feeling like that, is shitty. i let a year pass & i couldn't change one thing about my life. it's the same old story, same old tale, same old game. i vow that this week, i'm going to change and mold myself into what i want to be & not give a shit about any one else's opinion unless i ask for it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ShFp-QUg5i0

short stories with long ending

i'm thinking of writing a new short / long story
dunno about what yet..
maybe something that i wish would happen to me,
or how i think my future could be if i do the little things

hmm, any ideas?

you told me you like me without telling me

i guess 00.01% means something..
and you told me your plans after highschool
& i'm involved in them,
like riding in that camaro that you're going to fix up
and maybe even more, who knows

but i'll stick around, maybe long enough