i haven't seen you in a while

it's been so long since i've written in this thing. i'll be lieing if i said nothing has been going on.
i don't know where to begin, so might as well not. i'll just write about what i did today, or lately..

woke up. ate breakfast (for once) and everything else in between. shortened day today at school, five points for today. came home and it was really hot. chilled around, watched tv. i'm planning to work on my story a little, i haven't come up with a name to it yet. i'll just listen to jorge's advice, finish it, read it over, and it'll come to you.. it's original. not many people have read it or heard about it, it's going to remain that way too. afterall, i am writing it to entertain myself. so we'll see how this project goes..

i'm going to summer school and will you throw your shoe at me for saying i'm excited? i hope not, at least i'll be occupied this summer with school, trying to lose some weight, staying fit, writing, reading books & try to hangout a little with friends. the only thing that is getting away with summer school is no ride back home, since my mom is getting a job she is only able to take me to school & she doesn't get out til 12:30pm. she suggests i ask around who's going to summer school who i know personally, lives by my area & is willing to give me a ride for 20-25$ a week. not a bad deal, eh?

april 28 is the day my cellular contract ends with AT&T. i'm excited, my mom mentioned that my papito is considering getting t-mobile. i want a sidekick & nothing else. i have to check the pricing though, hope it's worth it. i've never had t-mobile, just my parents.

lately, people haven't been giving a cent about me. i listen to what they have to say and take in consideration of how they feel, everything else in between. but no one gives a damn about me when i have issues.. and just need to talk it out.. they always cut me off with something more important than me and that down right makes me furious. they just aren't worth my time, so why am i getting mad over it? i should just not care if they don't care.

the people who care will listen, hope you do the same for those too.

You constantly make it impossible to make conversation
Keep us comatose but audible.
And I like it the farther I get out.
We pass it off but it's all on us.
Only common conversation,it took everything I got.
And I like it the farther I get out.

Once said, always said.
I will hold the past over your head.
I'll speak my mind whenever I feel slighted.
I am hellbent on extracting all of my revenge.
Take heart, sweetheart, or I will take it from you.

TH1RTEEN R3ASONS WHY

i don't know if i should say nothing has been going on or something has been going on.. but either way, i guess both things have played out.

i want to be inspired to finish my stories.. (two). i just haven't had that motivation. wishing to pick up at things isn't working, either. maybe it all comes down to not having a good story to keep on writing and imaging things. yeah i think thats the issue here. when the time is right, i'll create another one. worth writing this time. something based no my life, but not entirely that would give me away. events and stories, like falling inlove, making wrong choices, memories, nostalgia...

Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher
Review: i didn't expect what i got from that book to be so powerful. it realy made me think about how i come off to people, and how there are always signs. i can admit that sometimes i let these signs pass me by. how much i thought about suicide and how i probably wasn't the only one.

when someone reaches for you help, you can't just ignore.. you know when someone is.. and can't just play yourself like it's nothing.

i think it's now my favorite book ever.

.. trying so hard not to sound cliche.

and i learned one thing.. all girl who commit suicide.. are named Anna..
reminds me of my book Autumn that i once was working on.. the girl who died was Ana. >.>

happy birthday

today is my birthday, it's probably the best birthday ever.
i'm around the people that appreciate me and don't forget about me.
i can't ask for anything more. =) nothing else matters.

birthday week, don't know what to expect

i didn't think i'd live this long, i thought i was going to go through more shit then i did, but its okay. it's probably sad to say that i don't feel anything, no big change, no big bang; just a year older. just yesterday, i was turning 15.

& feeling like that, is shitty. i let a year pass & i couldn't change one thing about my life. it's the same old story, same old tale, same old game. i vow that this week, i'm going to change and mold myself into what i want to be & not give a shit about any one else's opinion unless i ask for it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ShFp-QUg5i0

short stories with long ending

i'm thinking of writing a new short / long story
dunno about what yet..
maybe something that i wish would happen to me,
or how i think my future could be if i do the little things

hmm, any ideas?

you told me you like me without telling me

i guess 00.01% means something..
and you told me your plans after highschool
& i'm involved in them,
like riding in that camaro that you're going to fix up
and maybe even more, who knows

but i'll stick around, maybe long enough

what goes around comes around

nothing has been going on..

eating healthier now, going to start working out to Turbo Jam & i might be taking the Turbo Slim pills (all natural)

i want the AdventureLand soundtrack, i think i'm going to download it now.. so i can listen to it in the morning.

i got all C's and one B on my progress report & lets just say my dad flipped out..
i might have to cancel my party.. i hope i don't. yesterday, i bought the invitations & they are really pretty lol :/

*crosses fingers*

tomorrow will be a new day & new week..
this sunday is michele's birthday (gotta make her something!)

good bye diets, hello new lifestyle

last day of my diet, i can't say that it was easy nor hard; it was in between. i don't think i'll ever be doing this diet again, ever. unless i end up not having an eating life.. or taste buds. starting tomorrow, i'm going to start my new eating lifestyle, excerise included. since i got my period today, i won't be working out so hard til' sunday.

i was suppose to go to jewel to get my invitations, but it's ready 6pm and i don't think my mom wants to come along with me; i don't like going alone to places in the dark.

i'm thinking about making myself a chicken sandwich tomorrow for lunch, i don't like buying school food =) and with an apple. can't wait! then on friday, shrimp cocktail!, maybe..

i have cramps, ugh, i think i'm going to make my mom come with me to jewel, i need midol.

i really want the sims! and hottopic has some cool stuff on twilight =D

in two months i get a new phone =D hopefully from t-mobile.. if its good for us.

i think thats it for today.

surprise?

i've been wanting fruit this whole day, it sucks since i can't eat one; stupid diet.
one more day to go though, so yea, i'm excited -_-

bowling was fun today,
i think i'm getting my period this week, ugh
you aren't welcome! at least you won't be visiting on my birthday
so thats a good thing

i went to walmart today, hoping to find invitations..
but none, they were all out, they had these funny weird ones, but they weren't me
so i'm thinking of going to jewel tomorrow & being some

i changed the day to friday instead of saturday,
katie invited me to her 16th birthday party & i really want to go
i know what i'm making her..
a necklace, a bag, and a cd =) oh and bracelets.
i hope she likes it, i like to make things..
crafty!

today is tuesday, and tomorrow is wednesday..
that means thursday is almost here! aka tease day..

i don't know what i want for my birthday yet from my parents,
my mom already bought me this britney spears perfume set that i wanted
i hope she gets me those converse =) and other things

oh! there is this hella cute store at fox valley called One Love (by starbucks)
and i love everything in there, its so cute and stuff!
(not giving hints or anything)

syndrome

today was gloomy and rainy, reminded me of forks; i really enjoyed it. now it's about 6:20pm & it's pouring rain, i love the weather today, i wish it was like this everyday.

so i'm doing this soup diet, and i didn't eat a bowl of soup this morning, so i had a huge headache =( it sucked a lot, so when i got home i took meds =) it made it better.

ugh, my mom is making shrimp cocktail & i totally want some right now >.<

i'm listening to muse & i don't know what else to write.

well, fuck you friend, you're going to depend on someone else other than me.
good thing, i wouldn't have to worry about you anymore. peace out FAKE FOLLOWER.

nine in the afternoon

the afternoon with jessica, michele & amber was lots of fun =)
we went to borders after, our waiter told us how for his 21st birthday he went to chuckEcheezes & got kicked out 'cause he was in the playpen lol, he gave me a good idea for my 18th birthday
his name was michael? i think (i'd have to check the reciept)
anyways, he was very cool & we think he's gay, but its okay, i like gay people.
just not the bitchy kind.

so yea, i really need to lose weight, i'm getting paranoid, so i'm going to tell my mom to make that cabbage soup tomorrow so i can start thrusday =D yay

with that soup i lost almost twenty pounds.. =D
i want new clothes for my birthday & so on

last night i made jess a bracelet, i miss making bracelets and such.
i'm going to go back into that

i don't want to go to school tomorrow & i have to wash my gym uniform.

new blog

i've decided to make a new one, simply because i don't think i can share everything with that person, no longer.

anyways, i watched the oscars (first timer) & i loved it. i think i'm going to watch it every year now. my birthday is coming up & i don't know what to do, i don't want to have the company of certain people, simply because we are distant. good idea?

i'm going to olive garden for lunch for jessica's birthday;
with michele, amber & the birthday girl.

well that's all for now.